It's Not That Scary, You're Overthinking The Worry In Your Mind.
Used to be like this incarnate, where as now I'm alot better.
However, do any of you get that feeling like, if you initiated a conversation, you're just "bothering someone", because you feel "if they wanted to talk to you, they'd talk to you first"?
It's a silly reason really, but alot of us tend to fall into that trail of thought without realizing it.
Most of the time, if you initiate the conversation, the other person is thrilled that you took the time to talk to them, because they might be sitting there with the same or similar mentality, "if others wanted to talk to me, they would, why should I start it if I'M going to bother THEM?"
Sometimes, people will be too busy to talk, other times they are honoured that you would want to talk to them, it's a nice feeling.
You won't find out if you don't try.
No one's saying you have to be the life and soul of a party, or become drinking buddies with everyone out there, but you gotta follow your heart. Those you want to talk to, choose those people to talk to, there's a silent courage inside of you, and it's there for a reason.