How Do I Make Myself Feel Attracted To Him?He is learning new tricks, watching educational videos from sensual massages, *******, how to have sex to what not. Then he tries to give me a massage. Each and every crevice he learned to touch he is touching. And I get ---Zero arousal.
I am not attracted at him at all any more. Why is that?
Is it because in my mind I have blocked him as a potential mate, probably years ago. Maybe as a self preservation mechanism?
Or is it because I know right after the massage or whatever half hearted effort he does make he is going to fall asleep and not follow through with the sex.?
Or because in my mind I havent forgiven him for the times he should have been there for me, should have protected me, allowed me to be a woman, and he didnt?
Or is it because I just dont see a Man that a woman is attracted to? just a person..
Or is it because I feel humiliated in my heart that he is doing all this because I gave him the final deadline, and not because he is truly wants ..?
I am trying hard to feel attracted to him.. How do I do that?