“Am I crazy?” Is a burning question for the partner of a narcissist. Many victims suffer from symptoms of Post Traumatic Narcissism Syndrome (PTNS). PTNS is a condition in which the affected person’s memory, emotional, and physical systems have been traumatized. PTNS is an experience not a diagnosis. For sufferers, certain flashbacks of the abuse turn up repeatedly with endless variations. Victims tend to remain in large part controlled by the abuser, their mind and emotions in bondage. This elicits a terrible and terrifying combination of helplessness and rage; unbearable feelings that had to be suppressed for the victim to stay in the relationship. Following are symptoms of PTNS.
Symptoms of Post Traumatic Narcissism Syndrome:
● Flashbacks of the cruel behavior and trauma
● Hyperarousal (i.e., extreme fear of personal safety)
● Hypervigilance (i.e., scanning your environs for constant threats, stalking, violence)
● Depression & Guilt
● Multiple physical complaints
● Impaired concentration and memory
● Disturbed sleep & distressing dreams
What is a narcissist? A narcissist is a person who deprives their partners of the ability to feel joy and love as a separate person in relationships. They deliberately attempt to destroy or compromise the separate identity of another. The longer the relationship continues, the narcissist not only becomes less considerate, but actively cruel. Many victims end up feeling hollow because the narcissist squeezes them empty. The emotional deprivation, physical and mental torture can result in a type of soul murder. Brainwashing their partners into believing they are the problem keeps the emotional bondage going. This leaves survivors not knowing what they want and what they feel, or what they have done and what has been done to them.
A victim might question whether abuse really did happen. Acknowledging victimization is crucially important to the person’s ability to control obsessive thoughts of the past and recover. The survivor can then begin to separate and achieve independence from the narcissist. It is important that you do not turn this new awareness against yourself. For example, “I may be angry at him, but I’m even angrier at myself for putting up with it.” Using self-compassion, the trauma can contribute to the strengths and talents of the injured as they reclaim self-confidence. Be alert to self-blaming and change the negative thoughts when you hear them. You might say, Stop! Get out of my head.
One of the steps in recovering from the abuse is recognizing that you are angry and admitting it. It is essential to uncover your feelings, so you can begin the process of healing. Know where anger is coming from inside you. Emotions repressed are harmful and keep you trapped and powerless to face the situation or feel happiness. Acknowledging anger, usually disguised as depression, allows you to decide what to do about it and deal with it. Another step is to understand why you are so angry. Are you angry because you have been hurt, physically, emotionally, financially, etc.? Are you furious because of the way you have been treated and the emotional impoverishment you lived with? Are you resentful because you are the only who can change? Are you angry at being labled Bipolar? The mood swings from the stress of living in a war zone while dodging the narcissist’s land mines can look like a mental health disorder.
Once your anger is out in the open it is less likely to cause problems for you. It is necessary for you to change because you are the one who has been made sick by the existing situation. The ability to enjoy what you are doing, your daily living, and your recovery from PTNS are constantly influenced by emotions. Nurturing yourself when you are hurting is imperative. Devote time each day to doing things that make you feel good. Establishing a daily routine is essential to your mental health. Get professional help if needed. Invest in your well-being so that you can create what you need, deserve, and want in a relationship with yourself. Below are the criteria for the diagnosis of Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
According to the DSM-IV-TR, a patient must exhibit five or more of the following traits to be diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder:
● Shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes
● Grandiose sense of self-importance
● Preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
● Belief that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
● Need for excessive admiration
● Sense of entitlement
● Takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends
● Lacks empathy
● Often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her
Thank you for reading this article. I’ve dedicated my personal and professional life to non-violence and self-compassion by teaching from my experience. As a result, I’ve learned a lot about what it takes to create healthy relationships. And, as I learn and grow, I teach self-compassion and give advice I use myself, in the hopes that it helps you to improve your own life.