Ego is your sense of “I”, it will always be present in any consciousness (being) and it’s not a problem by itself, however the “ego-force” is at the root-cause of resistance to your “life force”, and thus is responsible for all the psychological suffering created by this resistance – by psychological suffering, I mean emotional and mental suffering. When I talk about reducing the mind/emotional momentum, it actually boils down to dissolving your ego-force – without a dominant ego-force there is no resistance to the release of your emotional accumulation, as well as the release of your mind momentum. A different way of explaining the dysfunction of ego-force is that having a sense of “I” is natural, but when your sense of “I” becomes such a strong force that it causes you to disconnect from “wholeness” you become imbalanced/deluded, and thus enter into a cycle of negativity. When you balance your sense of “I” (or ego) with your wholeness (life-space) you become a whole-based being, or a balanced, and stable, being.
It’s very easy to fall into a loop of reinforcing the ego-force even when you think that you are trying to dissolve this force in you. For example, these words are being interpreted by your ego-force and it may be having a certain reaction to it – it either feels happy about gaining this understanding or feels angry about being targeted, and both reactions are eventually reinforcing the ego-force. The right way to imbibe these pointers is to not make them into an ego enhancing technique, rather see them as an indicator towards a state free of ego-force domination. When the ego-force dissolves in dominance, your life-force can take over; your life-force is not some “outside” force, but it’s the real you, the wholeness of you – when your life-force takes full control, you naturally live an aligned expression, or what I call your “natural expression” as a human, and as a being/soul.
Connecting with your space of being
A lot of people feel confused about the “state of allowing” and wonder what it really means to allow. This is because the state of allowing, in actuality, is a means towards dissolving the grip of your ego-force, whereas most people try to execute the state of allowing “using” their ego-force – it’s this ego-force that’s always “wondering” how to allow; because the ego-force is all about “control”, it doesn’t know what allowing truly is. This is the reason why it’s important to understand the term “space of being” – I use this term to refer to the space outside your ego-force, it’s also referred to as the “space of stillness” or “space of silence” within you. You don’t have to create this space of stillness, you don’t have to imagine it or manufacture it by trying to silence your mind, rather you just need to sense its presence in you as the space of silence that’s existing outside your mind/emotional movement – it’s present in all of us. I also refer to this space of being as the “life-space” in us, which connects us with the totality, with the oneness of who we are, and thus with the intelligence of our life-stream.
When your ego-force dissolves in momentum, you automatically sense your inner wholeness or the space of unwavering peace – just like you sense the vast blueness of the sky, which is always present, once the clouds dissipate. The ego is most functional (and wise) when it’s operating in conjunction with this inner wholeness, and it’s most dysfunctional when it’s totally disconnected with inner wholeness. The point is not to get rid of the ego (you can’t get rid of your sense of “I”), the point is to dissolve the strong momentum/force that it has gathered owing to its unconscious, and narrow, pre-occupation with itself, while forgetting its truth of being the wholeness of life. When the ego-force is dominant in you, it’s not possible to be free of psychological suffering, no matter how positive your ego tries to be – the ego-force is inherently based in “separation”, and the stronger this force is, in you, the stronger is your separation from your wholeness, and hence stronger is the psychological suffering. You sense your inherent joy/wholeness, as a permanent presence, when you are free of the ego-force momentum – this space of wholeness allows your human/physical aspect to exude this wholeness externally through your “expressions” in terms of your actions, creativity or just your presence, plus it attracts wholeness-based realities onto you thus aligning you with your sense of abundance.
When you get into the journey of finding your inner wholeness (or even finding your true nature, or your truth) you are inevitably signing up for dissolving your ego-force. The moments of realization that are sparked in you during this journey (for example the realizations that you have while reading some insights or during some meditation/contemplation on your part) are basically nails in the coffin of the ego-force. Once you get a fore-taste of your inner wholeness, in a moment where you let go of clinging to your ego-force, it’s a moment of awakening (of course, it doesn’t last because the ego-force comes back in) – once this awakening happens your journey is fully on course, and it just can’t be stopped after that, and you inevitably start seeing your ego-force being dissolved (sometimes voluntarily, sometimes through the fierce grace created by the intelligence of your life-force) until it hits close to zero intensity/momentum. There is a phase of transition from being dominated by the ego-force to falling into alignment with your life-force, and this phase is not very pleasant for the ego – it’s a temporary phase and it gets done with more quickly when you simply let go of trying to “repair” your ego all the time, or trying to cling to the good feelings. This is reason why I give the pointer of “total allowing” where you fully allow the low-states that are bound to happen as the ego-force dissolves.
Fear is a catalyst that allows dissolution of ego-force
I mentioned in the previous post on “Wake-up calls” that they usually come in the form of a fear, or emotional suffering created by anxiety or confusion (which are just forms of fear). It is “fear” that causes the ego-force to start dissolving, and hence fear is used “intelligently” by your life-force to help in dissolving your ego-force – it can come as a shock to your ego-force to realize that events were being orchestrated, by your life force, to cause its dissolution by creating fear/confusion in it. It’s very normal for the ego-force to feel an anger towards this process, and it’s totally justified in this feeling, after all it’s a process that causes its deconstruction. I understand that this transition phase is not very pleasant for the ego, but it’s something that can’t be helped – it’s a natural part of the evolution of a soul/being, a natural growth phase in its journey towards reaching “conscious” recognition of its natural wholeness. So if you are having your “wake-up calls” right now, it just means you’ve reached this phase in your journey as a soul/being (it has probably taken several life-times for you to reach this place since your creation as a stream of consciousness).
Fear is your ally in this process of dissolving the ego-force, and it’s inevitably used by the intelligence of your life-force to create this dissolution. The wake-up calls can happen in the form of certain events that make you feel fearful towards life like a certain “loss”, or in terms of some financial, physical or emotional dysfunction. The usual tendency would be to simply try and repair this sense of anxiety, or depression, in your ego, through some external means – this tendency is very natural, however, it’s inevitable that you will finally reach a point where the ego repair mechanisms stop working. The ego-force cannot “create” inner wholeness, it’s the dissolution of ego-force that makes you sense the wholeness which was always present.
The paradox is that insecurities, frustration, confusion, inferiority, emotional hurt, depression are all very useful “dark nature” aspects that allow the dissolution of the ego-force and hence have a very positive-role in this process of coming to inner wholeness – you are bound to face these dark nature aspects as you move into this journey (these are just indications of the ego-force being shaken down); instead of trying to “protect” yourself just allow these elements to play their part in dissolving your ego-force. If don’t keep trying to repair your ego-force, it will continue to find dissolution more quickly. You can be rest-assured that these “fears”, or dysfunctional realities, are just a temporary phase in your journey as a soul, and once you start consciously allowing these “feelings” it will keep dissolving your ego-force to the point where it loses its grip on your being. You can also rest assured that your well-being will be taken care of during this dissolution phase; even if you don’t recognize this well-being during some insecure moments you are still totally in the lap of your life-force’s grace – the feeling of insecurity is just a “counter force” being used to dissolve the ego-force, and it’s part of this grace.
I get emails from people who describe certain events in their life (including having certain obsessive thoughts) that are causing them to feel confused, insecure or anxious. I recognize all of this as “wake-up calls” for their soul/being to find its inner wholeness, and my only pointer is for them to allow these feelings instead of fighting them or looking for a quick fix for them. The fears, or insecurities, are not the actual “negative”, they are simply the result/symptom of the ego-force having a strong momentum in you (which is the actual root-cause). If you allow these fears, in your being, they will act as a counter-force that will de-construct your ego-force, and hence act as your ally in this process. This is the reason why the whole industry of “thinking positive” doesn’t yield any long term benefit, after all “trying” to think positive just becomes another activity used by the ego-force, and thus keeps strengthening its presence in you. Rather, if you simply allow these so-called “negative” feelings within you, instead of trying to protect your ego from it, they will reveal their “positive” influence by breaking down the ego-force and thus bring you to your natural inner wholeness/freedom/balance which then automatically gets mirrored in your external reality also.