That sort of feeling can be overwhelmingly powerful! It is usually the result of a severe lack of education, especially U.S. History! There is still help for you though at local Universites and Community Colleges. If they don't fit your venue, try picking up a history book or ten, READ them and get caught up! Your supreme ignorance abounds in your post.
The mysteries of the unknown are a far greater fear than fear itself!
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